I Love you....

I love you. I always have, I always will 
I know that we are so far apart and there is no reason in it at all but I love you. 
I want to be with you more than taking 
my next breathes, 
more than being able to listen to the birds sing I want to hear your voice call my name.
I need to feel your arms holding never letting go.
Not just in my dear but in my living of this day. 
I need to see your face light up when you see me, I need you to love me. 
But I cannot tell you not here. Not in this place. 
so I nod and smile and chat about the things of life as the days pass by, 
all the time I'm hoping, 
praying that you will love me.

My Strengths :D

INCLUDER

“Stretch the circle wider.” This is the philosophy around which you orient your life. You want to include people and make them feel part of the group. In direct contrast to those who are drawn only to exclusive groups, you actively avoid those groups that exclude others. You want to expand the group so that as many people as possible can benefit from its support. You hate the sight of someone on the outside looking in. You want to draw them in so that they can feel the warmth of the group. You are an instinctively accepting person. Regardless of race or sex or nationality or personality or faith, you cast few judgments. Judgments can hurt a person’s feelings. Why do that if you don’t have to? Your accepting nature does not necessarily rest on a belief that each of us is different and that one should respect these differences. Rather, it rests on your conviction that fundamentally we are all the same. We are all equally important. Thus, no one should be ignored. Each of us should be included. It is the least we all deserve.

POSITIVITY

You are generous with praise, quick to smile, and always on the lookout for the positive in the situation. Some call you lighthearted. Others just wish that their glass were as full as yours seems to be. But either way, people want to be around you. Their world looks better around you because your enthusiasm is contagious. Lacking your energy and optimism, some find their world drab with repetition or, worse, heavy with pressure. You seem to find a way to lighten their spirit. You inject drama into every project. You celebrate every achievement. You find ways to make everything more exciting and more vital. Some cynics may reject your energy, but you are rarely dragged down. Your Positivity won’t allow it. Somehow you can’t quite escape your conviction that it is good to be alive, that work can be fun, and that no matter what the setbacks, one must never lose one’s sense of humor.

DEVELOPER

You see the potential in others. Very often, in fact, potential is all you see. In your view no individual is fully formed. On the contrary, each individual is a work in progress, alive with possibilities. And you are drawn toward people for this very reason. When you interact with others, your goal is to help them experience success. You look for ways to challenge them. You devise interesting experiences that can stretch them and help them grow. And all the while you are on the lookout for the signs of growth—a new behavior learned or modified, a slight improvement in a skill, a glimpse of excellence or of “flow” where previously there were only halting steps. For you these small increments—invisible to some—are clear signs of potential being realized. These signs of growth in others are your fuel. They bring you strength and satisfaction. Over time many will seek you out for help and encouragement because on some level they know that your helpfulness is both genuine and fulfilling to you.

ACTIVATOR

“When can we start?” This is a recurring question in your life. You are impatient for action. You may concede that analysis has its uses or that debate and discussion can occasionally yield some valuable insights, but deep down you know that only action is real. Only action can make things happen. Only action leads to performance. Once a decision is made, you cannot not act. Others may worry that “there are still some things we don’t know,” but this doesn’t seem to slow you. If the decision has been made to go across town, you know that the fastest way to get there is to go stoplight to stoplight. You are not going to sit around waiting until all the lights have turned green. Besides, in your view, action and thinking are not opposites. In fact, guided by your Activator theme, you believe that action is the best device for learning. You make a decision, you take action, you look at the result, and you learn. This learning informs your next action and your next. How can you grow if you have nothing to react to? Well, you believe you can’t. You must put yourself out there. You must take the next step. It is the only way to keep your thinking fresh and informed. The bottom line is this: You know you will be judged not by what you say, not by what you think, but by what you get done. This does not frighten you. It pleases you.

CONNECTEDNESS

Things happen for a reason. You are sure of it. You are sure of it because in your soul you know that we are all connected. Yes, we are individuals, responsible for our own judgments and in possession of our own free will, but nonetheless we are part of something larger. Some may call it the collective unconscious. Others may label it spirit or life force. But whatever your word of choice, you gain confidence from knowing that we are not isolated from one another or from the earth and the life on it. This feeling of Connectedness implies certain responsibilities. If we are all part of a larger picture, then we must not harm others because we will be harming ourselves. We must not exploit because we will be exploiting ourselves. Your awareness of these responsibilities creates your value system. You are considerate, caring, and accepting. Certain of the unity of humankind, you are a bridge builder for people of different cultures. Sensitive to the invisible hand, you can give others comfort that there is a purpose beyond our humdrum lives. The exact articles of your faith will depend on your upbringing and your culture, but your faith is strong. It sustains you and your close friends in the face of life’s mysteries.

You are Beautiful

Did you know, you are beautiful?
Well you are. 
You are stunning, radiant and you take God's breath away.
He loves you and created you exactly who you are, 
He loves you at your best and at your worst.
He loves you when you are waring your finest and when you are a sleep with drool hanging out of your mouth.
Yes, we know God loves us, but do you know you are beautiful?

God created you to be just as you are.

The color of your eyes, the dimpels in your face, the hairs on your skin...they all make you beautiful.

Every freckle on your smooth skin, the way you smile, how you laugh, how your eyes puff up when you cry....you are beautiful. 

When you are sick and pale, when you scrape your knee and are bent over, when you are all bundled up in the snow....You are beautiful.

Sadly this world works against us.

It says that we are not tall enough, not skinny enough, not athletic enough, not creative enough, not....enough.
But don't listen to it!

It whispers lies in the dark of night, hoping someone will listen, but that is all that it is...whispered lies.

Hold to the truth.

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. YOU ARE ENOUGH. 

And God Values you.

I value you.

You are made from the Image of God.
You are like no other species in all of creation.
Even God has called you unique. 
God has called all of creation good, but it was not Very Good until we were added. 
You are Stunning.
You and your life make God smile.
There is noone and will never be anyone ever like you again <3
Just thought I'd remind you, you are beautiful and you are precious <3

Do you cling to the dying rose or look to the rising sun?

God know what You've done, Where you've come from and what you are going through.

He knows your heart, your hurts, your joys, and what overwhelms you.

He knows how you yearn for love, for acceptance, for appreciation, to be needed. 

He sees you when you skip for joy.

He holds you when you cry your eyes out.

He laughs with you when snow tickles your nose.

He sends angels to stand guard over you while you rest your head, while you walk throughout your day.

He is with you when you are tempted to sin.

And when you fall down again, when His heart grows heavy.

He knows that hurts you try and cover with the addictions, which only make it worse.

He's with you when you try to go it alone.

He's holding you when your world crumbles around you.

He protects your heart from what you cannot handle but allows you to walk your own path.

And after you've done what you want, He picks you up, holding you close, dusting you off.

Throughout our fleeting days we say we are in control of our lives, doing what we want.

Yes we make our own decisions and from that we must live with our consequences.

But what is the point of all this?!

Why do we get up each day??

Is it for our glory?!? IF  it is I think that we are all screwed over.

Because though life gets hard and we push our faces to the ground,

if this is all there is then why do we work so hard?

Life is so crazy short that people we love and grow so close to are here one min. and gone the next.

IF this is all that there is, that is plain flat out crewel.

But our hope and faith and the promise given to us is that this is not all of it.

This pain and suffering and hurt was not meant to be in the first place.

This life, we being people who attach to each other so easily, we were not meant to separate.

But because of our choices we must be, for a short time.

But our joy is that this is not all.

We do not live for what had polluted this world, but for the things of God- or we should.

A few questions:

Does your life reflect that your hope, your faith is in the promise that was given to you, that we are meant for so much more?

Or do you blend in with the hopeless?

Those who are wrapped up in the things that are dying and fleeting?

Do you cling to the dying rose or look to the rising sun?

 Or

Whispered Prayers on an October's Eve

Lord, here i sit under the canopy of stars arbored by the strong gentle branches of this tree, resting as the slightest breeze plays with my hair tickling my face. Countless thing try and draw my attention; sirens, cars, machines truing on and off, the baseball announcer droning off the score again, the crunch of people scuffing through a handful of fallen leaves, and yet here I still absorbed in Your stillness, in Your peace.

Finally, for once, nothing else matters, not homework or test or money or a job or a relationship or anything, only You. God here in these few moments of peace and a gentle quiet all that matters is You. My nose stings with the deep draw of cool air and yet my hear cannot drink deep enough. My ears long to listen closer to the crickets' song and yet my soul edges ever closer to hear your voice. My legs tell me twigs and bark are poking me and yet I only feel that you, God my Lord, that You are here and that You are holding me because You love me. So here i rest in the cool stillness of this October evening, not simply sitting under a tree looking at bright floating orbs, but falling deeper and more passionately in love with You.

Thank you God for this wonderful evening

Rambelings of a Broken Heart

God's been challenging me so Much lately and if you've ever been challenged by God you knwo in your head it's a good thing but you almost never like it...same goes for me.

I've been going to this Bible study and the teacher Roger has talked about Shame so much and the differnce between Shame and Guilt. but first what causes shame....

wellll we all have hurts...little hurts that consume our hearts. our hurst are caused by a mean word or something done to us be it when we are young or older and it's like a grain of sand that's caught in a clams' mouth. The poor clam cannot spit it out or pull it out or get ride of it, therefor the clam puts up a thin layer of hardness around it over and over and over and over again over MANY years it becomes a pearl. we see a Pearl as something so precious but it's really a hurt masked over and over so many times... Jesus talks about our pearls

Matthew 7:6

"Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and then turn and tear you to pieces."

God is saying take care of your hurts. if you are stil dealing with the shame that is wrapped up in your hurts becareful with whom your share them. He also says...

James 5:16

"Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective."

so God is not saying that we have to concore the world alone or that we have to heal alone just to be careful of whom we share our pearls.

The difference between Shame and Guilt:

Shame-->hatred of whom I am

Guilt--->hatred of what I have done

Please pray that I would be released from my shame....and I pray you shall too if you trust me and or wanna chat feel free to comment or message me I'm here for there is joy

John 8:36

"So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed."

And He is freeing us from that shame :) Love you guys

Thoughts at 4am :D

I've been thinking a ton lately about life,

How it passes so quickly,

How precious and fradgile it is...

and yet we all, Myself inculded, treat it so worthlessly

we worry about so much and ignore that which truly matters...

we worry about money or clothes or reputation or this or that when really it doesn't matter.

All that matter is God, God and His people and the love He has for them.

And by 'God's people' I dont mean some chosen breed of people who are called and holier then thou

I mean all beings, each and everyone who was MADE IN HIS IMAGE

Gen. 1:27 says

"So God created man in his own image,

in the image of God he created him;

male and female he created them."

Have you ever really thought about that?

God chose to make us in HIS image, not that of a monkey or a whale or a tiger or a tree but in the IMAGE OF THE ONE TRUE GOD!! that Blow my mind.

God has called us and asked us to love Him, to love and serve Him with all we are.

He has asked us to open up our hearts and be transformed by His love and His being, to be closer to Him.

To hold NOTHING back,

not our addictions,

our hate,

our loneliness, 

our inner words of self hatred,

not what we do when we are alone,

or the actions that result from lies from satan,

God asks-no He doesn't even ask, He demands us to give Him EVERYTHING

and I mean How can we not?!?!

I mean He gave His life,

He is not asking for us to do anything that He has not already done

think about it if you were hanging out wiht your BFF and suddenly a guy came up to you and pointed a gun to your head and your friend jumped infront of you,

without thinking or caring about their life

they gave it all right away,

well Jesus did this except He did one better,

He DID think about it,

All His life,

At any moment He could have said no I'm done and called a bazillion Angels to come down and give up their lives,

but He didn't,

He CHOSE to stick it out,

He CHOSE to give it all,

He CHOSE to give up a family on this earth for His Heavenly family

He CHOSE to give up the fast fading 'fun' for the eturnal fun

He CHOSE to litterally DIE, stop exhisting here on earth for YOU and ME!

this makes me rethink what really matters...

Clothes?

Cars?

Ipods?

Marriage?

Money?

Fame?

is it eturnal or is it earthly?

Does it really matter?

Matthew 16:15-16

"But what about you?" he asked. "Who do you say I am?"

Simon Peter answered, "You are the Christ, the Son of the living God."

 

wanna know what mattered most to Him? read about it, read about Him, His word was not made for someone elseat some other time but it was written for you, for NOW