Waiting and crying

Hey all!! I'm sitting in the airport at Colorado Springs waiting for my flight kinda hungry but crying haha odd but yeah *sigh* I can't believe that I'm here already that God really meant I want u as a missionary, that it would be this hard.....but I guess that's a good thing it means that there are so many amazing people and relationships that have changed my life and I am deeply connected to you! I just keep telling myself you can do this you can do this. And with God I know I can but it's will hard to not know the future or where I'll b u know?? But God is good alway good